school adversary

Part 18

I stared fixedly at my lunch tray, trying desperately to ignore the idiots who had been ruthlessly and sadistically attacking me and the other "worms" for the last week. This crude behavior had forced me to do something I had previously never considered. I sat with other people besides Trowa. The attack of the jocks was annoying. It was persistent and subtle and *annoying*! It's very persistency and subtlety only increased it's annoyingness. They made sure that no teacher would catch the perpetrator, and if he *was* caught, another would soon take his place. It had forced me to seek refuge among people of my own status, and for this reason, more than anything else, I resented the mindless persecution of myself and others dubbed worms. It was my own fault though. After John and Ben got benched for almost raping Trowa, the rivalry between the two sides of the school had seemed to die down.

Worms could now walk alone without feeling fear every time a heavier, sneakered footstep was heard coming towards you. That brief lapse of spitefulness had lulled all of us into a false sense of security. Something we were all waking up from now. I knew who was doing it. Who was inciting the jocks to greater and greater, or should I say lower and lower, acts of petty spite. It was Wufei. I looked
over to where he was lounging amongst some players of the ice hockey team. He was one of the more lean jocks, his slenderness was surpassed only by Quatre and Duo's. Before all this had happened, before I had emotionally savaged my Duo, I had thought Wufei to be beautiful. I still did. Wufei had always had an air about him, an aura. A way of moving and speaking that screamed sensuality. His dark chocolate eyes seemed so wise and full of knowledge, yet he had the sculptured body of an athlete. I had always known that Wufei was no ordinary jock. He was too intelligent, too studious,
to be your average ball-throwing idiot.

When I had first seen him, I had felt a deep appreciation for the exotic appearance that made him so
noteworthy. He was, oddly enough, the only person of Asian descent in the entire school at this time, and he stood out like a rose among the thorns. No, that wasn't true, Wufei could never be describe as
something so delicate as a rose. Outwardly, he did appear to be easily broken, but if you looked closer, if you took the time to watch him a little, you could see he had an inner strength that few could rival.
Duo had an inner strength like that. Thinking about Duo brought my mind back to what it had been harping on for the last week. Duo was nowhere to be found. He hadn't gone to any of his classes or any of his out of school activities. Not that he could go to games after I had broken his arm. I pushed that thought firmly out of my mind as I reminded myself that once I found him again, I would do anything within my power to make it up to the lithe creature. But first I had to find him. And I would. I would
find him and beg him to forgive me, to take me back. Tell him that I couldn't live without him and
that I would never hurt him again. That I loved him more than life itself. But where was he? I sighed and pushed away my tray, knowing I couldn't eat any more. God I wished Trowa were here.

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I finished the icing one the three layer chocolate cake I had made that morning and put it hastily in the fridge. I wanted it to be a surprise dessert for Wufei, something to thank him for being there for me over the last week. For all his love and support, and for never once pushing me to take the relationship to the more physical level. I knew I loved him, loved him with all my heart. Or should I say half my heart, for I still loved Heero just as much. Everytime Wufei looked at me, his eyes darkened with love, I felt so guilty. How could I still love Heero after all he had done? I never told Wufei about my feelings for Heero. I knew I had to stop feeling love for Heero though. So my days were filled with ways which I could stop, as nothing had worked so far. It had occurred to me last night that if I slept with Wufei, maybe that would help. Don't get me wrong, I *wanted* to sleep with Wufei, but I was so afraid
of leaving myself open to that type of rejection again. Heero had told me he loved me, and looked what had happened there! But Wufei was different. I knew he wouldn't hurt me. Or at least I thought he wouldn't. I wasn't really sure of anything anymore. I guess it all came down to whether or not I wanted to live to the fullest, or always keep a part of myself held back from whoever I was with. I decided I
wanted to live. Now, how would I go about seducing Wufei? I knew he wasn't a virgin. He had had a small fling with a girl named Meiran.


She had apparently been friends with Wufei and had known him from when they both had been children. He had gone on a holiday to China and spent the month with her and her family. From what he had told me, they had made love a few times, then she had apologized to him very profusely and told him she had only done the wild thing with him because she wanted to prove she wasn't in love with her best friend, who happened to be a girl. He had told her he forgave her completely, and then begged her forgiveness for only using her to try and see if he could forget me. She had understood,
and they were still very firm friends, even though any romantic interest was gone.

I padded to my room and looked inside my wardrobe. What to wear? Something incredibly sexy, yet not so far out of what I would normally wear that Wufei would get suspicious. Well, lets start with pants. Something with a zip fly, and easily removable. That would mean baggy. Baggy looked
good on me. OK baggy, baggy, baggy...I looked through my pants and pulled out two I was particularly fond of. One pair was the black zipper pair I had worn to Heero's that first time, the other were my favorite pair of black jeans (I had three pairs). I decided on the jeans as the zipper pants held a few uncomfortable memories. Also, if I wore the zipper pants, Wufei might suspect I was going to try something. That wouldn't do. The element of surprise was essential to this plan. I grinned evilly as I discarded the thought of boxer shorts and went commando. I pulled on a tight dark violet T-shirt and started to plan the evening. Relena was very conveniently off at a sleep over party, and she wouldn't be home until tomorrow afternoon. This was the perfect opportuy. Wufei wouldn't know what hit him.