It's Just Emotions

Title: It's Just Emotions

Summary: Same as before.

Disclaimer: It's in the first chapter.

Pairings. Quatre/Trowa, Heero/Duo, Wufei/and some of the guys. (In case you forgot)

Warnings: some very thorough examinations.

A/N -yay! two reviews!!... thankie to both and Miku, u find out what happens in this chapter :) More reviews are welcome as always.

Chapter 3
The Motel

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
- No Doubt ‘Don’t speak’

Heero's view

The motel I chose for us to stay in was smaller than what we were used to, but it was all we could afford at the moment. Actually, we hadn't paid for it yet and wasn’t planning to. Duo broke us into the room. The room has two small beds, Trowa occupies one, Quatre should take the other, after I examine his injury. Having fixed my own wounds in the past, much to Duo’s disgust and awe, I was appointed the position of ‘the doctor’ by the others. I asked Quatre to follow me into the bathroom. At first the was a slight hesitation on his part, his eyes glanced toward Trowa, then Wufei, Wufei nods and Quatre follows me.

Duo is not in the room, he is out in search of medical supplies. He is extremely good at getting things we need without needing to pay for them. I hope he doesn't get caught. He looked so worried when he left. Though that might be becuase I am sure he's not looking forward to the time when I have to examine him. This entire day has been very awkward, painful, and strange.

Once in the bathroom the examination began.

"Where does it hurt?" I asked. When Quatre didn't reply, I thought perhaps he was in shock, that maybe he wasn’t able to think clearly. Happens to Duo all the time.

"Show me where it hurts?" I asked. This method usually works. Quatre continued to not speak and instead, he cast is eyes downward. I wasn’t stupid I had a pretty good idea that it hurt somewhere in the region where the drying blood was at the bottom of his outfit, but I wanted to know it he was in pain anywhere else as well.

"Listen you don't have to do this, really, there nothing for you to even... look at." He finally said. He said the last part quietly, as if speaking to himself, instead of responding to my questions.

" I'll decide that for myself Quat, so please, I have to check the others out as well." Quatre likes to think of others needs before his own, so I thought using the other’s well fare, might speed him up.

"Heero," He said, his tone quickly turning into a frustrated one. "I said, I'm fine, you want me to help you bring Trowa in or something."

"People in fine conditions do not have dried blood on their cloths and legs." I won. His frustration left, and his eyes started to water up.

"Look," He cried quietly. He lifted the bottom of the duck sheet he was wearing, up. "See, like I said, there's nothing to look at." He drop the dress and covered his eyes with his hands. I lifted the sheet back up. I couldn't have saw what I think I did. But I did. There before me was Quatre’s penis, but nothing else. His testicles were gone. I lifted his penis up, and Quatre took his hands off and face and gazed down his face was pinched with pain. There was a huge gash where the testicles were sheared off. Dried blood covered the wound. It would need stitching. It needed to be cleaned and stitched. Quatre was biting his lip now. I let him go and moved back a bit.

"Sorry,” He just nodde. “You have a large gash that I need to clean and stitch up Quatre." I said. He just stared at me blankly for a few seconds, then he nodded again. "I think it would be best if I had you laying on the bed in the other room, I can send the other guys on errands if you want." I have learned over the time I have spent with the guys that privacy is a necessity when if comes to certain areas of the body. I frankly couldn’t care less.

"Just send Wufei away. Trowa needs his rest and I don't mind if Duo's around." He said. This request was fine with me. I would need someone to help keep Quat's legs up and apart while I worked on him. Duo could do that just fine.

I nodded up at Quatre, then I stood up and walked out of the bathroom and into the main room. Duo was back, laying on his stomach in the bed closest to me. He was watching tv. When I entered he glanced over, smiled then pointed behind him. There was a First Aid kit.

"There you go doc, they had one at the front desk, and if the guy there asks, just say it didn't fall off and it works just a good as it used to." Wufei looked over, eyebrows raised. Duo’s smile just grew wider.

"Wufei, go and see if you can use the phone at the front desk. Call Jay and briefly inform him of what happened. Then ask him what we should do for now. Also see if you can find some drinks. Trowa’s extremely dehydrated." When I said this everyone looked over at the said boy. He was pale, his lips chapped. Then again, we all kinda looked like that. Wufei nodded and was out the door, but before he left Duo added, "Food Fei, get FOOD!" Once he was gone I got ready for what had to happen next.

"Duo, I need that bed, Quat, lay down and raise your legs for me, Duo, I need you to hold his legs for me. But, before you do that lock the door so I know when Wufei gets back." Everyone then set into motion with no questions asked. Duo did say "Oh, Quat." Once Quat was in position. Then he muttered the word 'bastard', but said nothing else.

Quat kept his eyes closed during it, and Duo chose to look at the wall. He stood behind me with Quat's feet in his hands. I tried to be as quick as possible, but there was a lot of blood to clean up and I didn't want there to be any chance for infection.

For clothes we decided that Quatre should get my shirt and Trowa’s pants. Though, they were a bit large and dirty themselves, but we were running out of clothes. Duo wouldbe left with Quat's yellow pants, I still had my black shorts, and Trowa had his turtle neck and boxers. Wufei would keep all his cloths so if we needed to go get something one of us were dressed properly. Which reminded me of what an odd sight DUo must of been when he retirved this forst aid kit. I don't think Quatre wanted to where Wufei cloths anyway, which lead me to think that there must have been a fight between them. When this happened I don't know. I've never known Quatre to be mad at anyone for any long lengths of time. But there was something going on between those two just the same.

Wufei did return twenty minutes later with five water bottles. I examined Trowa then, I had to restitch the badly stitched uped injuries. The men that took Trowa had removed any bullets that were still inside him, that I was unable to remove myself. For that I was grateful. Trowa could now make a full recovery that will last a couple of weeks to a month, without any complications.

Wufei had sustained no injuries, so it was Duo’s turn. We went into the bathroom. I have only seen Duo look so serious when in battle. This was going to be difficult.

"How should we do this?" Duo like to be in control, so I thought I try to make this as easy as possible.

"What needs to be done?" He question back. He still wasn't smiling. I frowned at this. or at least I was frowning inside. But if he wanted it to be done this way, then that’s the way it will be.

"I need you to bend over, and with the gloves from the kit I need to check your anus for any damage along your rectum. If there is, I need to clean it with peroxide and a cotton ball. I can give you pain killers afterward, but then there is nothing further I can do." Duo thought about this for awhile. His eyes stared directly into mine. He stared for awhile, then he let out a breath, and slowly turned around.

Duo view
"Hey, you do you have a First Aid kit!" I asked, halting in front of the uh... front desk. The man behind the desk eye’s widened, as I planned.

"Why? What's wrong?" Too easy.

" My friend who paid for room 218 about an hour ago, he forgot to pick up his key, but what we really need is first aid. See, I stupidly crushed he fingers in the door and now he's screaming and yelling and scaring people and I need a First Aid Kit!! Quick! Before the finger falls off!" I was so work up the man practically dove for the kit.

"Here! Here! Take it!"

"The key, I need the key too!"

"Here! Take the key! Now Go!"

"Thanks a lot!" I yelled as I ran out of that room and walked to room 218. When I got there Wufei was sitting on the floor next to the bed that had Trowa in it. His eyes were closed. Heero and Quat were missing but the bathroom door was closed. Shit, examination time. I sooo want to skip my turn. Having Heero near my ass was hard enough the first time but now again, in the privacy of a bathroom. What if I did something stupid like moan again. WHAT IF I get an erection. Shit Fuck. No that can't happen. It will hurt to much to feel good. Right? Right!... I need a distraction. Looking around all I see is Trowa... no fun.. Wufei... could be fun.... another bed, and a tv.... light bulb! I went to go sit on the other bed.

Ouch!

Okay I went and laid on my stomach, on the other bed. Turned on the tv. and went in search of the loudest tv. show. Two minutes after finding one...

"Shut that thing off! Wuffi growled, for the third time.

"Has anyone ever told you that you look sexy when your mad?" He stood straight up, face bright red.

"What did you say?" she.. opps, he said, grinding his teeth more with each word. I was about to repeat myself when Heero and Quatre emerged from the bathroom. Heero glanced over at me and I pointed behind me.

"There you go doc. They have one at the front desk, and if the guy there asks, just say it didn't fall off and it works just a good as it used to." I grinned Wufei’s red face contorted into a confused on. I grinned wider. Heero started giving Wufei orders. Told him to report to Jay and to get drinks. I added "Food Fei, get FOOD!" Then I winked. Fei's face was began to turn red again right before the door closed. Oh yeah, I'm evil. I was brought back to the now only to realize that Heero had told me to get off the bed and I was to hold Quatre’s legs up while he fixed him. Well, ‘fixed’ is the wrong word. Someone else already did that. Quat's job was to hold his dick up and out of the way, that's when I saw a hole where his balls should have been. It was covered in blood. I did that. This wouldn't have happened if I just answered that dumb asses questions the first time he asked.

"Oh, Quat," Was all I could say. I am so sorry, is what I wanted to add. This was all my fault.

"Basturd." I whispered to myself. That's what I was. Quatre would hate me if he ever found out. When it was all over with I gave Quat Heero's green shirt, then when I suggested we use Wufei pants, Quatre just quickly shook his head. Weird. Trowa offered up his own, so it all works out anyway.

Fei came back, baring water and no food. He'll pay for that later. Heero checked up on Trowa and I went back to watching tv. Then Heero came up to me and I knew it was time.
Once in the bathroom Heero got right down to business.

"How should we do this?" Again with the campy porno talk. How the hell do I answer that. ‘Well, I should just bend over and we can go on from there!’

"What needs to be done?" Is all I said. Shit, I'm nervous. Heero starts telling me this whole procedure he needs to do. All I get out of it is that he wants or 'needs' to put on some gloves and feel around and inside my ass or 'rectum'. Yeah, this sounds painful. Will his hand even fit in there? I mean how big was that pole thing, really? And why go in there it's not like I have piece of the pole still in me. He did mention painkillers though. I would like to be able to sit again. Okay I'll do it.

So I turned around and bent over with Quat's pants around my ankles. Why is there only a cool breeze when you are bare assed? I hear Heero slip on the doctor gloves. He puts his hand on my back and makes me bend down more. I do. I also hold onto my dick for dear life. Heero jabs one finger in. Ouch!

"Gentle Heero, I got a bunch of sensitive nerves in there." All I can think now is that was only one finger. He wants he whole fucking hand in. Heh. I made a funny.

"Sorry, try to relax." He says. What! How the fuck to I do that!

"How the fuck do I do that, Heero?" I say, I turn my head and look at him. He frowns and tries to come up with an answer. He peels one of he gloves off and starts rubbing my lower back. Right like that will work... it does feel... nice. I actually do start to relax.

I don't know how but the rubbing started to feel really good to a certain part of my anatomy. Before I could freak out Heero starts talking.

"Tell me if you feel a sharp pain anywhere." Wow he got his whole hand in me. Well, it is a small hand. It doesn't hurt that bad.

"Anything?"

"No sharp pain." This was very true. Heero hand inch in a bit further then, which is the most fucked up feeling in the world. His fingers hit against something in there and my whole body jerks. Heero quickly retracts his hand, which hurt, A LOT. I squeeze my eyes tight. What was that? Suddenly this rush of pleasurable sensations had washed over me. It felt great! Well, it did until Heero took his hand out. That hurt.

"That hurt?" Did I say that out loud?

"What?"

"Your body flinched, from pain?" Pain, hell no... pleasure, that's what is was. But I can't say that.

But I didn't have too. My face went bright red just by thinking of what I had felt and that’s when I noticed Heero had moved in front of me and staring at something. I looked down. Shit, my penis was facing the wrong way. And it hurt. I was afraid to look back at Heero. But I did. He was looking at me now. At my face.

He was so close, and it was only making things worse.

"I didn't feel any abrasions, and I don't think there are any internal injuries, but if you want me to and re check that part where your body..."

"Heero, would... could you just leave me alone for a few minutes." And then when I saw something flash across Heero's eyes, what was it, sadness, confusion, was it worry... whatever it was, it was gone. Heero just nodded stood up and left. Now what. The door opened again and this time only Heero's voiced entered.

"Be quick, Quat needs to shower." Yeah, well I need a fucking blow job! Didn't matter now, Heero had shut the door again and my dick was deflating in front of me. Once I was back to normal, I stood, slight pain shot up my spine but it was bearable. I slipped Quat's pants back up and prepared to leave. Take one big deep breath and ...go.

Quat's view.

Awful. That’s how it was to have the hole where your sperm sacs used to be, closed up. Painful, having to feel every stitch and when I got into the shower that night it was really to get away. I mean yeah, I needed to be clean, but I just don't know if I can look at the guys they same. Heero, yeah, he just did his job. Duo might act differently. He's already gotten more quiet. Then again, it’s very obvious he has a crush on Heero and it must have been very embarrassing for him to have Heero check to see if his tush was okay. Wufei won't try to do what he did back at out hideout again, at least. Why would he bother. Oh, and Trowa... he won't want to be with me now that I'm distorted. I'm a freak now. I feel to my knees and started crying.

The shower’s running, and I’m crying on the floor next to it.

No one wants a broken boy.

I finally did get my shower over with and redress. I had to admit I enjoyed putting on Trowa’s pants. It's silly but I felt closer to him somehow. Just thinking of him made me happy again. I walked out of the bathroom, Wufei was waiting to go in next. I made sure to give him a good glare as I walked past. Duo and Heero were missing, and Trowa was in the same spot. He was wide awake and looking me up and down. He motioned for me to go to him. I did. I sat down on the edge of the bed. He tried sitting up and I quickly moved to push him back down. He grabbed both my hands and pulled me on top of him. My head landed on top his chest with a soft thud.

"Trowa, your injuries, I don't want to hurt you." I tried getting up but he just moved his hands around my waist and pushed me back down.

"Then don't leave me."

"Leave you? Trowa I just want to get off you. I'm not going any..."

"What's going on between you and Wufei?" That shut me up. What was going through Trowa’s head right now? He thought I was gonna leave him... for Wufei? or was I jumping the gun here... but how did he know that we... did Wufei say something to him?

"Why? What did he say?" That didn't make him happy. Crap, it was one if those trick questions girls always ask that you just say ‘no’ to.

"Maybe you should get off."

"No, I mean nothing, nothing is going on between Wufei and myself, I swear. " Trowa just continued to stare at me. I had to tell him.

"Well, we did have sex this one time about a year ago... but you weren't around then, then back at the hideout place..." How do I put it without hurting Trowa’s feelings or making myself sound like a slut. Trowa laid patently waiting for me to finish. Not that the had a choice, me being on top of him and all, or the fact the he was injured.

"He kinda, kinda came in when I was in the shower, I was disgustingly dirty, and he..." I leaned in closer to Trowa's ear, just thinking of saying it mad me feel bad.

"...gave me a blow job," I prayed he knew what that was cause I didn't want to explain it. Once I got that out the rest was kinda spilled out of my mouth by accident. "Then he acted like a real jerk afterwards, he wouldn't even look at me or anything, and I don't even really like him like that, I'm totally in love with someone else."

"Who?"

"You." Opps. My whole body went tense. Trowa just smiled, our faces were inches apart. I don't know who moved to who, but I found my lips on his seconds later. Even though they were chapped, they were still the softest things I've ever felt, the warmest too. We broke apart and he licked his lips which made me bite my lower one. I know who made the first move next. Leaning my head forward, I kissed him again.

Heero's view

"Thank you." I said to ‘JENNY’ that worked at the CVS. I collected my bag and walked out. It was dark out. About 2:08 in the morning Duo was leaning against a street lamp. His eyes were shut as I approached him. He hadn't talk the whole trip up. I think he's mad at me. I replayed the bathroom scene ofr the tenth time. I must have hurt him when his body jerked, but there was no blood on my hand and I didn't feel anything. Then again I have never examined a rectum before so I don't know what it's suppose to feel like. What I did feel... was warmth, the muscles in Duo’s rectum would tighten around my hand form time to time. When I reach a patch of muscle that felt like a bump under my hand, Duo body spasmed. When I went to ask if he was okay... I saw his penis was erect. I must have hit a highly sensitive gland... or something. He sounded mad though. What did I do wrong?

"Duo, I got it." I said. He opened his eyes, he was extremely tired looking. In the past I have gone so far as to carry him to a bed. But now it seems wrong to touch him. He nodded to me and we begin walking back to the motel. His head was down the whole time.

"Are you mad at me?" He picks his head up and stops walking. He shakes his head. He doesn't continue walking. He just stands there, waiting. I know he wants to talk, but I have to be the one to start it.

"What happen in the bathroom?" He looks straight into my eyes. I see anger in them. If he's not mad at me what is he mad at, himself? Why? He didn't do anything wrong. I'm the one that hit that muscle that either caused him pain or... something else. That's it. Me hitting the muscle, must have sent pleasure like feeling, not pain, that gave him the erection. But he shouldn’t be mad with himself, it was a reaction he couldn’t control.

"Look, I..., see when your hand was in..., I don't no what happened but I.." He stopped again.

"Duo, I get it. I also know that you are mad at yourself for what happened. It's not you fault, but mine." I should have read up on the inner workings of the male anatomy if I wanted to continue to be the ‘emergency doctor’ for the guys.

"It's your fault I'm attracted to you?"

"What?"

"Wait what? You said you got it. That you being near me like that... cause... me... to... have... we're not talking about the same thing are we." Well before he mentioned when my hand was in him, so I only guessing he meant earlier in the bathroom, since there was never any other time THAT has happened.

"Are we talking about what happened in the bathroom this evening?"

"I hope so." I was becoming confused. Duo had just said he was attracted to me and I was suppose to already know this or was he just confessing this now. Was I suppose to have a certain reply for that? I decided to put those thoughts away for now, it was all too confusing and there were more important things to talk about. Besides if what he said is true then...

"Why did your body flinch when I touched you then?" Duo whole face turned bright red. I was certain that my theory of the sensitive nerve patch set him off, but I had to be sure.

"Oh, that..." He looked up at the sky and finished. "I don't know one minute every was as fine as a hand being in my ass can be, then Whoosh, a big wave of... of pleasurably goodness, shot through my body. It was weird." I took in to account everything he just said. Made sense. Plus, it felt good to be right. So now that all that was cleared up we really should head back.

"We should head back." Duo face fell. He just shook his head and started walking. This game was getting old. Now what did I do wrong.

"Now what's wrong."

"Nothing."

"Your lying."

"So."

"You told me you never lied."

"Well, I guess I was lying!" Why was he so mad. I was getting worried. I thought the conversation we just had would make him him happy again. Maybe I talked about the wrong thing.

Ouch.

Standing straight for so long, made my anus become a bit sore from earlier. I needed to check myself without the others knowing. But how? Should I bother asking Duo? Why would he want to help me now. He’s still mad at me. Duo stepped closer, the anger gone from his eyes.

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing."

"Your lying." I grinned a bit.

"So." He grinned a bit too.

"I'll tell you, if you tell me."

"Deal, but you go first." I said.

"Why?"

"Cause I asked you first." He grin grew wider. Then he began to frown again.

"Okay, didn't anything I said before... no... okay... Heero, I just told you I was attracted to you, doesn't that mean anything to you?" It was supposed to mean something... to me. It does. I like the the fact he's attracted to me. I'm find myself attracted to him. I just never put in in words before. Don't know how. What would that mean anyway? There's an attraction between us. I guess my response wasn't coming quick enough he mumble a 'forget it' and began to walk away. I didn't know what to do, so I just watched him walk. It was times like these that I realize what attracts me to Duo, he’s the only person that can put me in situations where I don’t know what to do. Me makes me feel flawed... makes me feel human.

Duo view

I tried not to cry. I really did. I tell him how I feel and he says it time to go. I know he has trouble explaining emotional things or showing emotions. But god dammit, how dare he just stare at me blankly.

I got back to the motel. Quat and Trowa were making out and Wufei was missing. Wait what! I quickly opening and shut the door again. Loudly. Quat quickly jumped off Trowa and sat on the other bed. Trowa just lifted his head and said. "Hey."

"Hello gentlemen, and how are you this evening?" Quatre just gazed down at the bed, with a blush on his cheeks.

"Splendid, that is until you came in." Trowa replied he motioned for Quat to come back over to him. Once Quat got off, I took the now empty bed for my own. I glanced over to see Quatre put his head on Trowa's chest, something I've seen before, then Trowa kissed the top of Quat's head, laid his own down and shut his eyes. I wish me and Heero could be like that. Right, Heero kissing the top of my head, please, he'd more like pull all my hair out before he did that.

Just then Wu-good looking, came in the room. He hair wasn't in it's tie but around his face. The boy don't look half bad soaked I must say.

"Did you think about me while you washed, my little Wu." That was for the no food. Fei face turned a little red before he muttered 'shut up' and went to the other side of the room.

"I love you too, babe." That was for fun. That's when Heero decided to come in. I was suddenly to tired to poke fun at Wuffers. So I just slinked under the covers and tried to go to sleep.

I woke up to the smell of ...food! I jumped up. But I was no longer on the bed. But on the floor and I could hear breathing in my ear. I turned my head and was inches away from Heero sleeping face. Eep! Heero's eyes slowly opened. Shit, now what. He just blinked at me a couple of times.

"Morning... well, Good afternoon sleepy heads." I looked up to see an overly happy Quatre with a plate in is hand. Forgetting the weirdness with Heero I get up to see what the Q- man is eating. Shitty fuck, I stood up to fast. Plus I forgot to take those pain killers Heero bought me last night. Well, they're for everyone officially. That cold - hearted basturd wouldn't get just me anything.

"Want some, we went to McDonald's and got everything off that dollar menu thing. So there's enough for all of us.

"Or just barely enough for Duo." Came Wufei Ching Chong’s voice from behind Quat.

"Are you implying that I am a pig sweet cheeks. Cause, that's not the nick name you gave me last night." Oh, evil Duo strikes again, too easy.

"And I thought you like the nick name Small Penis, hun?" Fayfers says and Quat's mouth drop. Oh, so we're playing that game are we. Okay.

"Well, it is kinda small compared to, now what did you call yours again... or right... your BIG THRUSTER." And did a thrusting movement with my hips. I win. His face was sooo red. Quat’s was too. Trowa just laughed. Heero was trying to hide his smile, but I caught it... umm... not that I care or anything. Anyway, we ate, Heero and I showered, separately, then Quat helped Trowa with his shower, oh so kinky, then it was time to head out. Beat-red-Wu informed us that Jay had decided to skip town, so we were on our own. He also said that Mr. President heard about the Mission/ Trap and would like to hear about it from us personally. Which is where we are heading now. To Mr. President.