Inside You

GW
and its characters don\'t belong to me but to Sunrise/SOTSU Agency and such.

I don\'t own Stabbing Westward or their song Inside You...nope sorry, I\'m not
affiliated with them in any way.

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A soft moan had begun to escape Relena\'s lips, though the sound was cut off
abruptly, swallowed whole by my mouth as it covered hers. It was taking every
ounce of my restraint to prevent myself from taking her quickly, harshly, and
violently. Two years it had took me to come to terms with my feelings for this
girl and now that I had finally admitted to myself my need and love for her I
did not want to ruin it with rushed, animalist lust.  My lips tore away
from hers as my teeth began to nibble down the rest of her body, her jaw, her
neck, the dip between her clavicle until they reached the tops of her breasts;
her skin felt hot as if underneath the softness the blood itself was boiling
within her.

“Oh
God, Relena.” I hissed with the exhaling of my breath, thinking all the while
how I could have denied myself the plres res of her for two years. If only I
had known it would be like this, if only I had known the completeness this
vulnerable, naked woman beneath my body could bring me. I nip and tease the
soft, fleshy nub of her lower body a few seconds before pulling myself back up
to her face. My cheek is pressed to hers, my breath tickling her ear as hers is
mine I caI cannot resist lingling her scent deeply, wondering how much longer
I’ll be able to control myself.

"Heero
please...don\'t hold back just..."

It
is all I need to hear and I enter her swiftly, sealing off her whimpering cry
with a searing kiss entering her swiftly, all at once, only then does my mind
register that her smothered cry was one of shock and pain, the cry of a young
woman loosing her very innocence. 

//I feel your l/

//I taste your skin//

//I need to know//

//I need to feel you from within//

//as your blood burns through my skin//

//I feel complete//

//I breathe you in//

//It\'s where you end and I begin//

//If only I could stay here... forever//

//so much to tell you//

//so much to sow you//

//so much to confide//

//now that I\'m inside you//

I curse myself
silently as the guilt washes over me, wishing I could stop, ask her if she is
in pain but my logic and words are lost in the pure emotion and sensations of
the moment. I do manage however, to move into her slowly at first, even though my
mind and body continue to wage war with my impulses.

I
had admitted to myself a while ago that I had always loved her, wanted her and
needed her, but until this moment I did not realize that it was a love that it
could last forever. That, in this physical act of our bodies joining they would
be forever, entangled in a web of unbridled passion and eternal union. Not only
as each other\'s lovers, but each other\'s guides, each other\'s confidant and
each other\'s sole reason for living.

I find myself pulling
her closer, whispering in her ear, "I love you Relena." The guilt is
no more.

//we are flesh//

//we are one//

//so why do I//

//feel so much guilt for what I\'ve done//

I
pressed my forehead deeply into the curve of her neck and shoulder, my cheeks
feeling wet from her tears, or are they mine? I sigh a moan into her neck
though the sound is more of a high-pitched whine. My fingers dig into her lower
back as I feel her clamping down around my sex. I grit my teeth in an attempt
to contain any sound but am unsuccessful, and the hoarse sob strains my throat,
causing it to burn as my girth betrays me as well releasing my seed deep within
her womb.

My
final thrust is the most forceful and my body shakes as chills run down my spine.
I try my best to steady my breathing, but even it seems to have gotten away
from me as well. I raise my body to lift it off of her, but she vices her legs
around my back.

 “No
Heero. Not yet. Her voice is soft but stern and commanding. I inwardly smile
liking the display of strength I always knew she had and I wish it could be
forever with her I could stay just as I am.

//As the blood burns through my skin//

//I feel release//

//I breathe you in//

//it\'s where you end and I begin//

//If only I could stay here...forever//

Still
keeping myself nestled within her, I raise my head to look at her.  The
tears on her cheeks are already dried and what I had expected would be a pained
look is instead of look of pure contented bliss, especially her smile.

Smoothing
away a few of my sweaty bangs from my eyes, speaks to me softly once again.
"I love you Heero."

"Relena,
I…"

She
ps a s a finger to his lips. "I\'m fine Heero. There\'ll be time to talk
later. Just promise me you\'ll never leave."

My
hands cup both sides of her face, my thumbs stroke her cheeks, my eyes drilling
intensely into her eyes that I swear are the color of the sea. It is now that I
make a silent promise to love her. And, even though, I know not how, I know
that she is the one who will teach me, and I will allow myself to be molded by
her. Through the tender kiss I am giving her lips I whisper to her the
vow.  "Never Relena. I will never leave you again."

//so much to tell you//

//so much to give you//

//so much to confide//

//now that I\'m inside you//

//so much to teach me//

//so much to show me//

//so much to give me//

//so much to tell me//

The
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