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Letting Go

By: armitage43
folder Gundam Wing/AC › General
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Letting Go

Disclaimer: I do not own the Gundam boys or any other character from the series. I don\'t own the song \"Hold On \" It belongs to Sarah McLaughlin and all rights are hers


Warnings: Angst, song fic, Heero POV.

Pairings: 1x2.

Rating: PG

Title: \"Letting Go.\"

Author: Ryouga.

Authors note: // Denotes song lyrics //

\"Letting Go.\"
June 2003 Ryouga


// Hold on. Hold on to yourself
For this is gonna hurt like hell. //

\"I\'m sorry Heero.\" Sally\'s voice interrupted my concentration as I watched the rapid rise and fall of your chest. \"There\'s nothing that can be done for him now.\"

// Hold on. Hold on to yourself
You know that only time can tell. //

\"How long?\" I heard myself demanding an answer from the woman as I reached down taking the cold and frail hand in mine.

\"I can\'t say Heero. It could happen today, tomorrow, a month from now. It\'s only a matter of time before...\"

// What is it in me that refuses to believe
This isn\'t easier than the real thing? //

\"There has to be *something* we can do!?\" I plead almost desperately.

\"I\'m sorry Heero, there\'s nothing.\" She must sense my anguish as I look into her eyes trying to find answers, because she turns away.

\"We\'ve done everything possible. I\'m sorry.\"

// My love. You know that you\'re my best friend
You know that I\'d do anything for you. //

I watch as Sally leaves the room, a serious look in her eyes and I understand now. I think I understood before, but I didn\'t want to believe it. Not about you.

I would do anything for you right now; even take your place, if I only knew how.

// And my love let nothing come between us
My love for you is strong and true. //

I refuse to let death destroy what we have. You are my heart and soul. My love. My everything. Without you I am only half.

// Am I in heaven here or am I...
At the crossroads I am standing. //

I don\'t know what to do or think anymore. I\'m confused, and for once in my life I think I am truly afraid. My heart beats fast as I think about the way things used to be, knowing that all too soon it will be over.

// So now you\'re sleeping peaceful
I lie awake and pray that you\'ll be strong tomorrow
And will see another day and we will praise it
And love the light that brings a smile across your face. //

I climb up by your side and lay next to you, reaching out I touch your face gently. You stir. I pull my hand away from you. It took you long enough to fall into a restless slumber and I didn\'t want to wake you now that you\'d finally settled.


// Oh god if you\'re out there won\'t you hear me
I know we\'ve never talked before. //

I often wondered about asking WuFei about his god Nataku. He seems to have a lot of confidence in the deity, but, I don\'t know what to believe in any more. Not even *I*, the perfect soldier can fix this.

// And oh god the man I love is leaving
Won\'t you take him when he comes to your door? //

I feel like I\'ve failed, failed the only one I ever loved with every fiber of my being. If there is a god Duo, I want him to watch over you when you finally leave this life.

// Am I in heaven here or am I in hell
At the crossroads I am standing. //


It\'s hard watching you like this. I fee hel helpless and knowing that I can do nothing, makes it worse. You cough, trying to catch your breath but you can\'t. I sit you up in my arms and reach for the oxygen mask but you push it away.

\"Let me go Heero.\"

You beg me for your release. I tense, realizing you have been holding onto life for *me*.

\"It\'s alright.\" You reach out and place your hand gently over my heart. \"I\'ll always be with you, here.\"

Your body starts to convulse and there is nothing I can do but hold you.

// So now you\'re sleeping peaceful
I lie awake and pray that you\'ll be strong tomorrow
and we will see another day and we will praise it
and love the light that brings a smile across your face. //

My heart feels like it\'s being ripped from within me as I watch you slowly slip away. I clutch at my chest with my free hand, working hard to hold back the tears, but, OH GOD!! It\'s unbearable. I can\'t stand this pain and I hear you whisper one last time as a tear escapes my grasp...

// Hold on, Hold on to yourself
for this is gonna hurt like hell. //

\"Ai Shiteru. I love you!!\"


Owari....

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