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Chapter Six
Standard disclaimers apply!
warnings: I\'m going to be including rape scenes etc. later on, pilot preggy, prostitution.... O and LOTS and LOTS of torture! ^_^
Pairings: 2x1 mainly, a bit of 1x2 (i like Uke Heero best! ^_^) side pairings (3x4, 5xS) just mentioned and variousx1
Apologies to anyone who feels I have stolen any of their material, I promise you it wasn’t intentional but I have read a lot of fics in order to get ideas *hides* don’t hate me….
Thanks to anyone who’s bothering to read this fic it\'s going to be part of a loooooooong series but I have to fit writing chapters in with doing coursework etc. so it may not get finished for a while but believe me it WILL get finished!
Like all authors i LOVE getting reviewed (good or bad its just good to get someone\'s opinion) so if you can spare the time please please please review thx.
all my love
[An Angel\'s] Silver Tear
**********************************************************************************************************
Title: Hell is for Heroes
Chapter Six
A lone figure was stood in the garden smoking a cigarette. He did not look happy. Soon after another figure joined the first. He to did not look happy.
“Got a fag I could scrounge Duo?” Heero asked. They needed to talk. Even if Duo hated him he had to tell Duo the truth. If he died he wanted to know that Nam would be ok. For that to happen he had to tell Duo his secret.
“Why don’t you go back to your family?”
“Because we need to talk”
“I have nothing to say to you Heero”
“Maybe not but I have something I need to say”
“And why should I ln? Yn? You cheated on me Heero. Why should I trust anything you have to say?”
“Huh? What do you mean I cheated on you?” Now Heero was confused.
“The date of Namida’s birth means that she must have been conceived when we where still together! Don’t even try to deny it Yuy! I can actually do math!”
“I wasn’t going to deny it Duo… But it’s not what you think.”
“Oh yea?”
“Yea”
“Oh do share Yuy! I just want to know how you have a child who was conceived when we were together but you didn’t manage to cheat on me!”
“Her name is Namida Helen Maxwell-Yuy, and She’s your daughter Duo. Yours and mine”
“What? How is that possible?! I don‘t believe it. Your lying! Don‘t fucking lie to me Yuy!”
“Duo I’m not fucking lying! I gave birth to her, ok!” Heero suddenly felt ashamed. No, he will not be ashamed of his daughter. The one good thing he ever done in his life. He no longer cared about the look Duo was giving him. That look that made him feel like scum. It was the same look he received most nights when he went to work.
He looked up at Duo. Eyes full of resolve. “Duo, just hear me out ok. Then what ever you decide I will respect.”
Duo could only nod. Did Heero honestly expect him to believe this shit?
“Ok, so firstly I’m dieing Duo. I have Leukemia, I’ll be dead before my 22nd birthday, maybe even my 21st. No I’m not telling you this because I want pity. I’m telling you this because like it or not you are Namida’s father and when I’m gone it would be nice to know that you’ll be there to bring her up.”
“Your serious about this aren’t you? How is it possible for you to give birth. I mean I KNOW you’re a guy! What the fuck is going on here!”
Heero sighed. “ Ok Duo I’ll tell you the whole story. Please don’t interrupt me because I’m only going to say this once. If you don’t like any of this I really don’t care. This is what happened and you can’t change that!”
***
“Hello, how can I help you?” The woman behind Dr Sutten’s reception desk seemed nice enough . She was cheery, jlikelike Duo. Heero hated it.
“I am here to see Doctor Sutten. The name’s Yuy.”
“Okay, the doctor is waiting for you Mr Yuy, go straight through.”
“Thank you.”
Heero had been feeling ill for weeks, which was strange because he never got sick. Dr Sutten was the doctor that had taken care of him during those dark days with J. Heero didn’t exactly trust Sutten, he didn’t trust anyone, but he knew he could count on him.
Jeffery Sutten was a fat little man with receding hair lose. He had once been a solider but you wouldn’t think it to look at him. His whitening ginger hair has pulled back into a short pony tail which was secured with an emerald green elastic band. The overall look of the doctor suggested that he had been quite good looking in his youth, it’s just a shame these looks didn’t continue to old age. At the grand old age of 56 Jeff was most certainly thinking of retirement. Most people would start to except their new found seniority but sadly not Jeff. He still insisted on going to rock concerts and even under his white coat he was wearing an Iron Maiden T-shit. The band being severely out of fashion and before even his time.
“Hello Kid, it’s been a long time.” Sutten smiled, he’d always liked this kid. It was just a shame about all the trauma the poor boy had been thought.
“Hello Doctor. How are you?”
“Well I’m fine Kid or should I call you Heero ”
”
Offering his long time doctor a small smile, Heero answered “Which ever is fine” .
“Well as pleasant as this is I trust you came to see me for a reason.” It wasn’t a question, it was a statement. This is why Heero liked this man. He was direct just like him.
“Yes. I have had a lot of trouble keeping my food down which is strange considering how you and J fixed my blood so I couldn’t get sick.”
The doctor frowned He hated being reminded of his part in Heero’s misfortune.
“Well lets have a look at you then.”
All tests came up negative and they were just waiting for the blood test results when Heero had another one of his vomiting fits.
Sutten frowned. What was going on with this kid?!
The blood test results provided that answer. Sutten’s frown deepened, this couldn’t be right. After an hour of checking and double checking he decided to try to determined how this was possible.
He got his answer.
With a sigh he called the extremely astonished, but trying not to show it, Heero into his office.
“Sit down Heero. Don’t say a word until I’ve finished, ok?”
Heero could only nod.
“Your blood tests show that the drugs injected into your system by OZ have reacted to the drugs which were already in your system.
These drugs were implanted in you by J and myself to stop you from falling ill. The reaction of the drugs have contaminated one of your sperm cells, morphing it into an ovum.
Now judging from what I have found, I would say that you have recently had sexual intercourse with a male, as the egg cell has been fertilized.
In short…you’re pregnant Heero.”
“WHAT!!!”
“Your pregnant” Heero was in hysterics but the doctor was his usual calm, calculating self. Jeff knew that Heero needed to calm down or he could hurt himself and the baby. From his past experience with Heero he had learnt that long complicated speeches relaxed him. Jeff took a deep breath and began.
“You are pregnant Heero. If you would like I can run some more tests, get an ultra sound in but none of this will change the fact that you are eight weeks pregnant.
Heero there are very few options open to you. Ideally I would like to get you to have an abortion, but I don’t think you’ll do that. You should be able to carry the baby full term, but in order to deliver you’ll need toe a e a C-section.
I should warn you that the pregnancy will, almost certainly, be very painful for you as you are not build to carry a child. I want to stress that with any decision you make I’ll be here to support and guide you. “
Heero looked at him with Prussian eyes of determination “I want to keep my baby.” Half way through Suttten’s speech Heero had excepted that he was going to be a mother. After all worse and stranger things had happened to him.
The doctor smiled, he’s expected this. Heero was a very compassionate young man. He was never meant to be a killer, that was Doctor J and Odin Lowe’s doing.
***
In the days that followed Heero sank into depression. He was alone, penniless and pregnant. He contemplated killing himself several times but just couldn’t go through with it. He had a life growing inside him. A life that depended solely on him to keep it alive. Just by killing himself he would be destroying this innocent life. He would be murdering his unborn child.
He had no choice. He decided he had to go back to Duo.
Heero had every intension of telling Duo about the pregnancy, he really did, but just as he plucked up the courage, Mariemeia and the Barton Foundation popped up with a plot to destroy peace.
A four month pregnant Heero fought against the Barton Foundation. He fought for the baby growing inside him that he almost miscarried during that fight. He fought for the world that repeatedly turned its back on him and he fought to Duo, whom he knew could never love him.
He fought and then he ran. Away from everyone. To protect his child, so he wouldn’t have to fight again. So Duo wouldn’t hate him. So he wouldn’t have to hear Duo call him a freak and say that he didn’t love him.
He chose to be alone. Well not exactly alone, he had his child. His only shot at a loving family.
Family. He’d given up all hopes and dreams of ever having one but now…
Now he had one. How could he hate Dr J for torturing him or Oz for trying to kill him orn Dun Duo for using him. A combination of these upsetting events had lead to this. They had lead to his salvation.
His child.
On the 19th May AC 197 Namida [Tear] Helen Maxwell-Yuy was born.
“My dear child, you will never know you middle name or your true last name. I hope you can forgive me.
It’s just that you father doesn’t love me and I don’t want to hurt him by making him feel that he has to be with me because of you. I am a weak man, but for you. I will try to be stronger.
I have given you this name because I want you to have something of your father’s, even if you’ll never know him.
You are named ‘Namida’ because I have a Japanese name and I think you should also. Namida means Tear, I chose it because you are born from my tears like a phoenix from the ashes.
You are named ‘Helen’ after the woman your Father, Duo, thought of as hitherther and your last name is a hyphenated version of both your parents names.
I promise that you will be the most cherished and loved little girl in the whole of the Earth’s sphere.
Aishiteru, my miracle child.”
Duo started wide eyed as Heero ran off crying. He couldn’t believe what he had just heard. He knew Heero wasn’t lying but the heartbroken look in his eyes.
He, Duo Maxwell, had been a father for three years and hadn’t even known. He knew he had hurt Heero but he couldn’t work out how.
Duo punched the wall of the house ‘Damn, how the fuck am I supposed to deal with this?! I’m a father and I in someway lead Heero to believe I didn’t love him! HOW THE FUCK DO I KEEP FUCKING UP THIS BADLY?!!!’
***
Well people I am really sorry about the long wait but I’ve been writing this between exams >.< Plus with aff.net being down and with all the heavy traffic it’s been really hard. Hopefully next chappy will be up soon! ^_^
warnings: I\'m going to be including rape scenes etc. later on, pilot preggy, prostitution.... O and LOTS and LOTS of torture! ^_^
Pairings: 2x1 mainly, a bit of 1x2 (i like Uke Heero best! ^_^) side pairings (3x4, 5xS) just mentioned and variousx1
Apologies to anyone who feels I have stolen any of their material, I promise you it wasn’t intentional but I have read a lot of fics in order to get ideas *hides* don’t hate me….
Thanks to anyone who’s bothering to read this fic it\'s going to be part of a loooooooong series but I have to fit writing chapters in with doing coursework etc. so it may not get finished for a while but believe me it WILL get finished!
Like all authors i LOVE getting reviewed (good or bad its just good to get someone\'s opinion) so if you can spare the time please please please review thx.
all my love
[An Angel\'s] Silver Tear
**********************************************************************************************************
Title: Hell is for Heroes
Chapter Six
A lone figure was stood in the garden smoking a cigarette. He did not look happy. Soon after another figure joined the first. He to did not look happy.
“Got a fag I could scrounge Duo?” Heero asked. They needed to talk. Even if Duo hated him he had to tell Duo the truth. If he died he wanted to know that Nam would be ok. For that to happen he had to tell Duo his secret.
“Why don’t you go back to your family?”
“Because we need to talk”
“I have nothing to say to you Heero”
“Maybe not but I have something I need to say”
“And why should I ln? Yn? You cheated on me Heero. Why should I trust anything you have to say?”
“Huh? What do you mean I cheated on you?” Now Heero was confused.
“The date of Namida’s birth means that she must have been conceived when we where still together! Don’t even try to deny it Yuy! I can actually do math!”
“I wasn’t going to deny it Duo… But it’s not what you think.”
“Oh yea?”
“Yea”
“Oh do share Yuy! I just want to know how you have a child who was conceived when we were together but you didn’t manage to cheat on me!”
“Her name is Namida Helen Maxwell-Yuy, and She’s your daughter Duo. Yours and mine”
“What? How is that possible?! I don‘t believe it. Your lying! Don‘t fucking lie to me Yuy!”
“Duo I’m not fucking lying! I gave birth to her, ok!” Heero suddenly felt ashamed. No, he will not be ashamed of his daughter. The one good thing he ever done in his life. He no longer cared about the look Duo was giving him. That look that made him feel like scum. It was the same look he received most nights when he went to work.
He looked up at Duo. Eyes full of resolve. “Duo, just hear me out ok. Then what ever you decide I will respect.”
Duo could only nod. Did Heero honestly expect him to believe this shit?
“Ok, so firstly I’m dieing Duo. I have Leukemia, I’ll be dead before my 22nd birthday, maybe even my 21st. No I’m not telling you this because I want pity. I’m telling you this because like it or not you are Namida’s father and when I’m gone it would be nice to know that you’ll be there to bring her up.”
“Your serious about this aren’t you? How is it possible for you to give birth. I mean I KNOW you’re a guy! What the fuck is going on here!”
Heero sighed. “ Ok Duo I’ll tell you the whole story. Please don’t interrupt me because I’m only going to say this once. If you don’t like any of this I really don’t care. This is what happened and you can’t change that!”
***
“Hello, how can I help you?” The woman behind Dr Sutten’s reception desk seemed nice enough . She was cheery, jlikelike Duo. Heero hated it.
“I am here to see Doctor Sutten. The name’s Yuy.”
“Okay, the doctor is waiting for you Mr Yuy, go straight through.”
“Thank you.”
Heero had been feeling ill for weeks, which was strange because he never got sick. Dr Sutten was the doctor that had taken care of him during those dark days with J. Heero didn’t exactly trust Sutten, he didn’t trust anyone, but he knew he could count on him.
Jeffery Sutten was a fat little man with receding hair lose. He had once been a solider but you wouldn’t think it to look at him. His whitening ginger hair has pulled back into a short pony tail which was secured with an emerald green elastic band. The overall look of the doctor suggested that he had been quite good looking in his youth, it’s just a shame these looks didn’t continue to old age. At the grand old age of 56 Jeff was most certainly thinking of retirement. Most people would start to except their new found seniority but sadly not Jeff. He still insisted on going to rock concerts and even under his white coat he was wearing an Iron Maiden T-shit. The band being severely out of fashion and before even his time.
“Hello Kid, it’s been a long time.” Sutten smiled, he’d always liked this kid. It was just a shame about all the trauma the poor boy had been thought.
“Hello Doctor. How are you?”
“Well I’m fine Kid or should I call you Heero ”
”
Offering his long time doctor a small smile, Heero answered “Which ever is fine” .
“Well as pleasant as this is I trust you came to see me for a reason.” It wasn’t a question, it was a statement. This is why Heero liked this man. He was direct just like him.
“Yes. I have had a lot of trouble keeping my food down which is strange considering how you and J fixed my blood so I couldn’t get sick.”
The doctor frowned He hated being reminded of his part in Heero’s misfortune.
“Well lets have a look at you then.”
All tests came up negative and they were just waiting for the blood test results when Heero had another one of his vomiting fits.
Sutten frowned. What was going on with this kid?!
The blood test results provided that answer. Sutten’s frown deepened, this couldn’t be right. After an hour of checking and double checking he decided to try to determined how this was possible.
He got his answer.
With a sigh he called the extremely astonished, but trying not to show it, Heero into his office.
“Sit down Heero. Don’t say a word until I’ve finished, ok?”
Heero could only nod.
“Your blood tests show that the drugs injected into your system by OZ have reacted to the drugs which were already in your system.
These drugs were implanted in you by J and myself to stop you from falling ill. The reaction of the drugs have contaminated one of your sperm cells, morphing it into an ovum.
Now judging from what I have found, I would say that you have recently had sexual intercourse with a male, as the egg cell has been fertilized.
In short…you’re pregnant Heero.”
“WHAT!!!”
“Your pregnant” Heero was in hysterics but the doctor was his usual calm, calculating self. Jeff knew that Heero needed to calm down or he could hurt himself and the baby. From his past experience with Heero he had learnt that long complicated speeches relaxed him. Jeff took a deep breath and began.
“You are pregnant Heero. If you would like I can run some more tests, get an ultra sound in but none of this will change the fact that you are eight weeks pregnant.
Heero there are very few options open to you. Ideally I would like to get you to have an abortion, but I don’t think you’ll do that. You should be able to carry the baby full term, but in order to deliver you’ll need toe a e a C-section.
I should warn you that the pregnancy will, almost certainly, be very painful for you as you are not build to carry a child. I want to stress that with any decision you make I’ll be here to support and guide you. “
Heero looked at him with Prussian eyes of determination “I want to keep my baby.” Half way through Suttten’s speech Heero had excepted that he was going to be a mother. After all worse and stranger things had happened to him.
The doctor smiled, he’s expected this. Heero was a very compassionate young man. He was never meant to be a killer, that was Doctor J and Odin Lowe’s doing.
***
In the days that followed Heero sank into depression. He was alone, penniless and pregnant. He contemplated killing himself several times but just couldn’t go through with it. He had a life growing inside him. A life that depended solely on him to keep it alive. Just by killing himself he would be destroying this innocent life. He would be murdering his unborn child.
He had no choice. He decided he had to go back to Duo.
Heero had every intension of telling Duo about the pregnancy, he really did, but just as he plucked up the courage, Mariemeia and the Barton Foundation popped up with a plot to destroy peace.
A four month pregnant Heero fought against the Barton Foundation. He fought for the baby growing inside him that he almost miscarried during that fight. He fought for the world that repeatedly turned its back on him and he fought to Duo, whom he knew could never love him.
He fought and then he ran. Away from everyone. To protect his child, so he wouldn’t have to fight again. So Duo wouldn’t hate him. So he wouldn’t have to hear Duo call him a freak and say that he didn’t love him.
He chose to be alone. Well not exactly alone, he had his child. His only shot at a loving family.
Family. He’d given up all hopes and dreams of ever having one but now…
Now he had one. How could he hate Dr J for torturing him or Oz for trying to kill him orn Dun Duo for using him. A combination of these upsetting events had lead to this. They had lead to his salvation.
His child.
On the 19th May AC 197 Namida [Tear] Helen Maxwell-Yuy was born.
“My dear child, you will never know you middle name or your true last name. I hope you can forgive me.
It’s just that you father doesn’t love me and I don’t want to hurt him by making him feel that he has to be with me because of you. I am a weak man, but for you. I will try to be stronger.
I have given you this name because I want you to have something of your father’s, even if you’ll never know him.
You are named ‘Namida’ because I have a Japanese name and I think you should also. Namida means Tear, I chose it because you are born from my tears like a phoenix from the ashes.
You are named ‘Helen’ after the woman your Father, Duo, thought of as hitherther and your last name is a hyphenated version of both your parents names.
I promise that you will be the most cherished and loved little girl in the whole of the Earth’s sphere.
Aishiteru, my miracle child.”
Duo started wide eyed as Heero ran off crying. He couldn’t believe what he had just heard. He knew Heero wasn’t lying but the heartbroken look in his eyes.
He, Duo Maxwell, had been a father for three years and hadn’t even known. He knew he had hurt Heero but he couldn’t work out how.
Duo punched the wall of the house ‘Damn, how the fuck am I supposed to deal with this?! I’m a father and I in someway lead Heero to believe I didn’t love him! HOW THE FUCK DO I KEEP FUCKING UP THIS BADLY?!!!’
***
Well people I am really sorry about the long wait but I’ve been writing this between exams >.< Plus with aff.net being down and with all the heavy traffic it’s been really hard. Hopefully next chappy will be up soon! ^_^